Thread 3: because the island has a sense of humor he'd rather do without (mr_neutral)

[stalkerwithacap]

[He's standing in front of a certain beach house, with a package in his hands]

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[stalkerwithacap.livejournal.com]

... Just said he wanted to feel. After that nothing much. Just said to continue whenever I thought it might be a good idea to stop.
...
_{Look, I know it was just that.}

[stalkerwithacap.livejournal.com]

And that was after, anyway. Before kissing me he... really didn't say anything.

[mr-neutral.livejournal.com]

He still said what the purpose of it was. When accomplished he left.

[stalkerwithacap.livejournal.com]

I know. [sigh] I'm stupid but not that stupid. I got it.

[mr-neutral.livejournal.com]

So why is it causing you so much heart ache.

[stalkerwithacap.livejournal.com]

Because I'm afraid of losing two of my best friends over this and because somehow I got things mixed up half way.

[mr-neutral.livejournal.com]

What got mixed up? N seems unaffected.

[stalkerwithacap.livejournal.com]

I got mixed up. He's all right I think.
[chuckle, a bit helpless]
Thank god he's all right. Don't know what I'd have done if I'd messed up for him on top of that.

[mr-neutral.livejournal.com]

He's not not that simple. As protective of him as everyone is.

[stalkerwithacap.livejournal.com]

Yeah I'm the only stupid one in this. I get it.
... Ears is so pissed at me you have no idea.

[mr-neutral.livejournal.com]

You consented to what he wanted I don't see what you're punching yourself over this for. I'm sure N's talking to his Zoroark.

[stalkerwithacap.livejournal.com]

Well I shouldn't have, for one thing.
But-
I don't even know. Shouldn't hurt but it does.

[mr-neutral.livejournal.com]

You said you wanted to make him happy, he said what would, you obliged. So why shouldn't you have? Silver?

I'm not sure, but it sounds like the real reason it hurts is because you're getting feelings for him and he might not reply.

[stalkerwithacap.livejournal.com]

[he just nods when you mention Silver. And then]

... I don't know.

[mr-neutral.livejournal.com]

I'm just making a guess, that's all.

[stalkerwithacap.livejournal.com]

... doesn't feel the same as with Silver. Dunno if it's less or not but it's different.

_{...sure felt like it back then though. It's so easy to get things mixed up when it happens. Should've known better by now.}

[mr-neutral.livejournal.com]

[He doesn't know what to say here.]

[stalkerwithacap.livejournal.com]

[...] It's like all I do is give you my life story, huh?

[mr-neutral.livejournal.com]

Just means you have a hell of a one to tell.

[stalkerwithacap.livejournal.com]

[chuckle] Somehow I never get to the good parts. If it was just shit I'd have lost it long ago.

[mr-neutral.livejournal.com]

Obviously. Anyways, the knives are over there, second small drawer.

[stalkerwithacap.livejournal.com]

[That makes him laugh, kinda. Might have been a residual sob in it somewhere. But he goes for that drawer]
Cake heals everything?

[mr-neutral.livejournal.com]

Eh, people say so especially chocolate. Not for me.

[stalkerwithacap.livejournal.com]

Guess I just have a sweet tooth. Works for me, kinda. Though kicking the hell out of something works even better.
[starts cutting]

[mr-neutral.livejournal.com]

[He pulls the box of games over with his crutch now.]