Thread 3: because the island has a sense of humor he'd rather do without (mr_neutral)

[stalkerwithacap]

[He's standing in front of a certain beach house, with a package in his hands]

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[mr-neutral.livejournal.com]

[That puts him on edge. Instead of saying anything or even moving he waits for them. He's bracing]

[stalkerwithacap.livejournal.com]

[somehow he manages to hold them off, but his voice is raw]
I just wanted to give him a bit of happiness. And now Ears probably hates me and--
Fuck it's not like I have tons of friends I just can't lose these two.

[mr-neutral.livejournal.com]

Wait wait you need to calm down a second.

[stalkerwithacap.livejournal.com]

[trying to breathe deeply]
Sorry.

[mr-neutral.livejournal.com]

No, don't apologize. Just iron this out here first.

He just left or did something happen before he left? How did he react?

[stalkerwithacap.livejournal.com]

Just- got dressed, thanked me and left.
[bitter chuckle]

[mr-neutral.livejournal.com]

....[Eyebrow raise] There's a reason he did that. You just have to confirm it for me: What did he say to you, beforehand.

[stalkerwithacap.livejournal.com]

Beforehand?

[mr-neutral.livejournal.com]

Before that happened. When he initiated it. N always does things in steps and vocally. It's a weird habit of his.

[stalkerwithacap.livejournal.com]

... Just said he wanted to feel. After that nothing much. Just said to continue whenever I thought it might be a good idea to stop.
...
_{Look, I know it was just that.}

[stalkerwithacap.livejournal.com]

And that was after, anyway. Before kissing me he... really didn't say anything.

[mr-neutral.livejournal.com]

He still said what the purpose of it was. When accomplished he left.

[stalkerwithacap.livejournal.com]

I know. [sigh] I'm stupid but not that stupid. I got it.

[mr-neutral.livejournal.com]

So why is it causing you so much heart ache.

[stalkerwithacap.livejournal.com]

Because I'm afraid of losing two of my best friends over this and because somehow I got things mixed up half way.

[mr-neutral.livejournal.com]

What got mixed up? N seems unaffected.

[stalkerwithacap.livejournal.com]

I got mixed up. He's all right I think.
[chuckle, a bit helpless]
Thank god he's all right. Don't know what I'd have done if I'd messed up for him on top of that.

[mr-neutral.livejournal.com]

He's not not that simple. As protective of him as everyone is.

[stalkerwithacap.livejournal.com]

Yeah I'm the only stupid one in this. I get it.
... Ears is so pissed at me you have no idea.

[mr-neutral.livejournal.com]

You consented to what he wanted I don't see what you're punching yourself over this for. I'm sure N's talking to his Zoroark.

[stalkerwithacap.livejournal.com]

Well I shouldn't have, for one thing.
But-
I don't even know. Shouldn't hurt but it does.

[mr-neutral.livejournal.com]

You said you wanted to make him happy, he said what would, you obliged. So why shouldn't you have? Silver?

I'm not sure, but it sounds like the real reason it hurts is because you're getting feelings for him and he might not reply.

[stalkerwithacap.livejournal.com]

[he just nods when you mention Silver. And then]

... I don't know.

[mr-neutral.livejournal.com]

I'm just making a guess, that's all.

[stalkerwithacap.livejournal.com]

... doesn't feel the same as with Silver. Dunno if it's less or not but it's different.

_{...sure felt like it back then though. It's so easy to get things mixed up when it happens. Should've known better by now.}