Thread 3: because the island has a sense of humor he'd rather do without (mr_neutral)

[stalkerwithacap]

[He's standing in front of a certain beach house, with a package in his hands]

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[mr-neutral.livejournal.com]

[This face.]

[stalkerwithacap.livejournal.com]

And it just-- went downhill from there I guess. Couldn't make myself push him away. Wanted to show him some things in life were fucking worth it, or-
_{I don't even know anymore.}

[mr-neutral.livejournal.com]

Yeah that's...pretty stupid. What happened afterward then?

1/2

[stalkerwithacap.livejournal.com]

[little snort] I'll spare you the details. Anyway the next morning Ears turned up. Somehow he didn't kill me and then N woke up and they left.

2/2

[stalkerwithacap.livejournal.com]

[and he's not crying, but with the way his chest is working it's not too far from it]

[mr-neutral.livejournal.com]

[That puts him on edge. Instead of saying anything or even moving he waits for them. He's bracing]

[stalkerwithacap.livejournal.com]

[somehow he manages to hold them off, but his voice is raw]
I just wanted to give him a bit of happiness. And now Ears probably hates me and--
Fuck it's not like I have tons of friends I just can't lose these two.

[mr-neutral.livejournal.com]

Wait wait you need to calm down a second.

[stalkerwithacap.livejournal.com]

[trying to breathe deeply]
Sorry.

[mr-neutral.livejournal.com]

No, don't apologize. Just iron this out here first.

He just left or did something happen before he left? How did he react?

[stalkerwithacap.livejournal.com]

Just- got dressed, thanked me and left.
[bitter chuckle]

[mr-neutral.livejournal.com]

....[Eyebrow raise] There's a reason he did that. You just have to confirm it for me: What did he say to you, beforehand.

[stalkerwithacap.livejournal.com]

Beforehand?

[mr-neutral.livejournal.com]

Before that happened. When he initiated it. N always does things in steps and vocally. It's a weird habit of his.

[stalkerwithacap.livejournal.com]

... Just said he wanted to feel. After that nothing much. Just said to continue whenever I thought it might be a good idea to stop.
...
_{Look, I know it was just that.}

[stalkerwithacap.livejournal.com]

And that was after, anyway. Before kissing me he... really didn't say anything.

[mr-neutral.livejournal.com]

He still said what the purpose of it was. When accomplished he left.

[stalkerwithacap.livejournal.com]

I know. [sigh] I'm stupid but not that stupid. I got it.

[mr-neutral.livejournal.com]

So why is it causing you so much heart ache.

[stalkerwithacap.livejournal.com]

Because I'm afraid of losing two of my best friends over this and because somehow I got things mixed up half way.

[mr-neutral.livejournal.com]

What got mixed up? N seems unaffected.

[stalkerwithacap.livejournal.com]

I got mixed up. He's all right I think.
[chuckle, a bit helpless]
Thank god he's all right. Don't know what I'd have done if I'd messed up for him on top of that.

[mr-neutral.livejournal.com]

He's not not that simple. As protective of him as everyone is.

[stalkerwithacap.livejournal.com]

Yeah I'm the only stupid one in this. I get it.
... Ears is so pissed at me you have no idea.

[mr-neutral.livejournal.com]

You consented to what he wanted I don't see what you're punching yourself over this for. I'm sure N's talking to his Zoroark.